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Topics I write about: ecology, creativity, fungi, plants, healing work, the body, somatic practices, herbalism, thresholds, past life regression work, being a human.
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The Integration Era

January 2026

After years of mind expansion, mental health discoveries, healing journeys and sharing of big dreams, it's time for us to ground what we learned and put it into practice.

‍I’m sitting in a dimly lit, musty smelling back room of a 100-year-old church building in Portland, Oregon. We’re sat in a circle of about 16 people on plastic folding chairs like a stereotypical self-help group from an American TV show. Everyone introduces themselves briefly and why they’ve come to the meet-up. The vibe is reserved, a little reluctant, but slightly searching for connection. We’re all there to discuss what psychedelics have to do with Buddhism. I signed up weeks before and nearly forgot, and though it’s my next to last day in Oregon I can feel there’s something important about going to this meet-up this evening.

In a smaller group of six we turn to the question of how our recent experiences have been going - with regards to psychedelic experiences, integration, or life in general. With a lot of patience and care, each person brings their experiences to the circle, everyone listens calmly, the topic morphs and changes naturally. I can’t remember ever having been in a group discussion on the topic of psychedelics with such vastly different points of view - and our differences are a pleasure to experience. Each contribution is very grounded and real, not sugar-coating life or the complexities that can arise...

When Mushrooms Invite You to Climb for Your Dinner

November 2025

A forest, a mushroom, a dog, a human

‍Cow bells ring softly, old stones are underfoot. I walk past a tiny fig tree that’s on a mission to show its prowess: not even a meter tall, but full of bounty. The sky is clear and deep blue, early autumn light makes everything glow a little, as if its been wrapped in a translucent golden film, softer and more welcoming than in other seasons. I meet a red squirrel with a fur coat moving from light brown to auburn to red, as if it went for an ombre effect at the hair salon. It’s mouth stuffed with a nut, we stare at each other for a couple full minutes before I finally break the link and let him continue preparing his stash.

Without my phone and on a mission to wander, the neighbor’s grey mustached dog runs up to me, jumping on me and not letting loose, as if trying to initiate a slow dance. He leaps and bounds around, eventually taking the lead along the path. His owner is digging up potatoes - we exchange pleasantries in Spanish. His canine companion leads me through fields and down paths next to old stone walls...

Art's Transforming Role:
From Top Down to Bottom Up

August 2025

About building bridges between science, nature and healing. And creating first-hand experiences of discovery and emotion for others

‍My biggest book recommendation of the year so far (besides “The Overstory” from Richard Powers), is undoubtedly “Art as Therapy” by Alain de Botton and John Armstrong.It opened many doors in my mind and gave me a more expansive view on how the role of an artist or designer can play a bigger part in the times that are upon us and coming. They put forward the idea that art should serve as a lighthouse for good and that artists should “become the choreographer[s] of an experience you should have, rather than an experience they once had”: that the underlying mission of art should change how we experience the world.

To some this might sound a little obvious, to others a bit too ambitious, but in their book they were able to convey how it is time for the role of art to shift. Away from creating memorials and instead creating opportunities for deeper first-hand experiences of the real thing...

Learning the Language of Nature

July 2025

How pattern recognition in nature can lead to pattern recognition in ourselves and fellow humans

‍The smell of wild roses mixed with pine trees and salty ocean. This sensorial cocktail follows me for hours and kilometers along the Polish Baltic Sea, etching a new memory and location into my brain to return to in moments where I crave feelings of flow and freedom. The scenery changes again and again in it’s combination of trees and plants. I imagine the mycelial structures just under the surface. Returning in autumn, basket in hand, to sand-loving mushrooms that enjoy this seaside environment of salty air and mossy ground. Each of these shifts in the environment are feeding my brain with new information and patterns, giving me clues about the spaces I’m entering and exiting.

Biking and camping for several days affords a unique experience of passing through many different environments over a short amount of time. Yet at a slow enough pace to still identify familiar plants, trees and other living beings. Each break for water or a snack opens up another opportunity to crouch down and get closer to our surroundings, noticing patterns known and new. These trips help me to more fully immerse with Earth, providing occasions to expand my language of the natural world...

Going to Mushroom Church

May 2025

About a solo magic mushroom trip on Christmas Eve, an unexpected evening in a church, and the beauty of experiencing all the emotions

What does it feel like to be in one spot for your whole life, deeply and widely connected to your surroundings: every neighbor, every tree, the soil, the plants.

‍I’m sitting amongst 500 other people – imagining exactly this. On an uncomfortable wooden pew, a zodiac-themed chandelier above, red brick walls, in a square-shaped church in Kreuzberg, Berlin. Everyone has calmed down for a moment, eyes closed, breathing relaxed, bodies slumped against the wood. Tarun Nayar opens “Mushroom Church” with this short, guided meditation, helping everyone root down into this shared space for the next hour or two.

The next hour and a half of the experimental format is filled with mushroom and plant music: different mushrooms and plants are connected to synthesizers, creating etheric and unexpected sounds and patterns. The church is lit up in different colors, morphing visuals are projected on the ceiling, and collaborators enter and exit the front of the room, adding music or poetry to the evening. The atmosphere is warm and welcoming, the congregation giggly, curious and responsive.

It does remind me of going to conventional church a little, but it feels a lot more right. We are connecting with the natural world and with each other, a language I understand more quickly than written records and stories from another time. The guidance and wisdom from plants and mushrooms hits softly but quickly, a more gentle nudge in the right direction than the old stories that often pull on our mental capabilities first...

Resurrecting Rituals and Creating the New

April 2025

And thoughts on how to end cycles with oomph

The end of April, and what a ride it has been so far this year! So much intensity in just a couple of months - not only in the external world, but also reflected in my own life and in the lives of those around me. (Thank goodness for astrology updates from Molly McCord, which help to understand it’s not just me..!)The only other time I remember so many people going through big shifts and realizing they needed to move into something new was within the first year of the pandemic.

Although there are also some external motivations this time, to me it appears that a lot of the conversations and decisions this time around are coming from a more grounded, internal resilience. These rooted decisions seem to be based on lived experience and nudges from the heart, and are less like the 2020 feeling of having the rug pulled out from under us. A more collective decision to change and create the new, more patient and forgiving, is emerging...